Friday, September 18, 2009
Signals and Signposts
I'm a big believer in the presence of divine signals and signposts. I think the universe put them in our lives to help us along this path. They run the gamut from "Straight ahead" to "You aren't alone, keep going" to "STOP YOU IDIOT". Sometimes they are recognizable immediately, other times not.
Last night at 10pm I heard a weird noise and my cat Pearl attacking the recycle bin. I looked over and see a huge dragonfly. This is odd for a number of reasons- 1: we live 5 stories above ground, 2: it was nighttime and they aren't nocturnal beings and 3: we live 4 blocks from the river where they would be living. I took this as one of those signposts.
I rushed over to save it. Pearl is the self designated household "bug killer" and she lives to catch and eat insects. I didn't want to see this beautiful creature become her late night snack. He was a large brown one, with a wingspan of over 4 inches. So prehistoric looking, I wish I could have sat and studied him for a few hours. I kept trying to shoo him out any of the open windows and he would NOT have it. He wanted to stay in and refused to be put out. Everytime I put him out, he flew right back in. He kept landing on my head and shoulder, flew around my work table, sitting on my stuff, etc... It was so bizarre! If the cats weren't around I would have been happy to let him buzz around for as long as he liked.
Pearl was going bonkers, seeing that juicy treat buzzing around and not being able to get it for herself. I must have put him out the window 7 times but he kept flying right back in. I called Rob down and took the cat in the bedroom. He tried to get him out 4 or 5 times and only succeed because the dragonfly flew into an empty vase and settled down in it. Pearl managed to fill her homicidal needs on a poor moth in the bedroom, so she was happy in the end. Mr. Dragonfly is back outside, hopefully safe and sound.
Dragonfly's are so amazing, they have changed little since prehistoric times except they are smaller. I think one of the oldest fossils of a dragonfly has a wingspan of 3 ft. Can you imagine a huge dragonfly that size buzzing around? The sound would be deafening!. I do love them, I have a dragonfly tattoo on my leg and recently had the Dragonfly Baby necklace published in a recent issue of Belle Armoire. The general symbolic meaning of dragonflies are: a symbol of happiness, new beginnings, renewal and change. This is so relevant to my current state of life right now. I've been going through all kinds of emotions this past week, and seeing the dragonfly reminded me to focus on the NOW and all the wonderful things that are happening. The emotional ups and downs that go with a reunion of this sort are jolting, I wouldn't change going through it for the world. It's made me look inside myself and re examine some of my own fears and insecurities, beliefs and truths. It's brought my husband and I closer together and above all I now have one less hole in my heart/soul. I am experiencing a new beginning of happiness through renewal and change.
Thank you dragonfly, for being the signpost to a new beginning in my life.