Sunday, December 05, 2010
Reverb10: Let Go
You all know, I'm a big believer in synchronicity and the universe leaving little hints here and there to help us when we need it. My sleep schedule is completely messed up from being sick. I'll nap off and on during the day then at night I'm up until 4am or 5 or later....So, in the wee hours of the morning yesterday while blog surfing I came across Bonnie Rose's Blog where she talks about Reverb10.
What the heck is reverb10? The description from the website: Reverb 10 (#reverb10) is an annual event, an open online initiative that encourages participants to reflect on this year and manifest what’s next. It’s an opportunity to retreat and consider the reverberations of your year past, and those that you’d like to create in the year ahead. We’re connected by the belief that sharing our stories has the power to change us. We look forward to reading yours.
If EVER there was something I needed that showed up at just the right time in my life, this would be a prime example. Everyday they post a prompt, today's prompt is:
Let Go: What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
I laugh that THIS is my first prompt. I want to say "what DIDN'T I let go of in 2010? Some things that I let go of have been painful. I let go of my beloved cat of 18 yrs. I let go of trying to make my marriage work when it clearly wasn't and in turn had to let my husband and our 12 1/2 yr marriage go. That was very very hard but I truly believe its for the best for BOTH of us in the long run. So, now I've let go of security and stability while I go out on my own after so many years. I am leaving my beloved San Francisco with its diversity and temperate climate and moving to W.Va at Christmas time where its 25 degrees and snowing. I'll be leaving my super urban, down town city living in my loft apt and moving into a 120 yr old brick flat in the historic district of a tiny city of 35,000 people. I've also let go of some other relationships where I gave more than I got in return. Energy suckers and people who only know you when they want something or need someone one to cry on. I deserve more than that in a friendship.
But letting go isn't always a painful thing. I'm letting go of so many "things" because I have to move and can't talk all this junk with me. While purging, I have come to realize how much I held on to things over the last 10 or so years because of fear. Fear I "might" need it "one day" or fear I wouldn't be able to find or replace it if I got rid of it.... Now things are going to Goodwill, to friends or getting sold and along with all that stuff I didn't need I'm also letting go of stress of clutter and chaos.